Fluffy thoughts

Winter... blah

2009-11-16T20:16:59Z

It has been way too long since I last wrote in here. Since I have changed so much during this year, I felt that the old entries in here were not needed anymore or at least not all of them anyway.

Viiru has settled in nicely into this appartment, I still have way too much stuff to organize but that cannot be helped. Moving sucks big time. Appartment is nice though and location is way better than before.

I am beginning to wonder if selfhate and winter somehow walk hand in hand. During the summer I was learning to accept me as I am now. But right after the darkness and cold, better known as winter, arrived I have been feeling rather blue and every ounce of fat that I carry seem to mock me in the mirrors. And it really doesn't help to work in place where everyone is always so perfect from the outside and you are the onlyone with huge amount of fat to be carried around. Yay, does wonders to ones selfesteem, wouldn't you agree?

Testing and more testing

2007-02-02T14:23:14Z

You Are More Yin

Feminine
Devoted
Forgiving
Fall
Winter
Afternoon
Moon
Time
Passive
Metal
Honey

Are You More Yin or Yang?

More tests

2007-01-14T21:12:51Z

Your Birthdate: May 29

You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.
Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings.
You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments.
You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.

Your strength: Your vivid imagination

Your weakness: Fear of failure

Your power color: Coral

Your power symbol: Oval

Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance.
You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need.
You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others.

You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others.
You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity.
Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships.

Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself.
At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others.
At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

Tests and more tests

2006-12-16T22:22:54Z

What, what...*lmao* But I am always so leveled. This cannot be accurate...*giggles*

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

Making these is way too much fun... *giggles*

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Ay, ay. It is now proved. Hard wind is blowing in my head...*giggles*

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life.
You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first.
You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker.
You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Death and Destruction

2006-12-16T17:29:10Z

http://www.wizards.com/whatisyourdoom

Loved this test. *chuckling* I want more.

Narun pätkiä

2006-12-14T14:07:06Z

Viiru päätti tuhota yhden sen naruluista melkoisen totaalisesti. Lattia on nyt täynnä eri mittaisia ja värisiä narunpätkiä. Muistuttaa hieman mun elämääni. Ainakin nuo narut ovat sillä tavalla mukavan ja epämukavan sekaisesti kuin mun päänikin.

Ajatukset toimivat samoin kuin narut, kun ne solmii yhteen muodostuu ketju, josta vähitellen muodostuu lankarulla, mutta jos solmu aukeaa... no, me kaikki, edes joskus lankoja käsitelleet tiedetäänkin mitä sitten tapahtuu. Mulla on taas semmoinen olo, kuin joku ois solminu jotain... enkä löydä sitä solmua, jotta voisin avata sen. Pirun hankalaa taas.

Miks ne solmut tuntuu aina fyysisesti sijaitsevan masussa?

Pitäis kai taas syödä jotain... vaikka mansikoita. *nam* Saiskohan niitä jostain talvella?

Mansikkaraparperisoppaa

2006-07-09T14:53:01Z

Jep, jep... elämä on välillä kuin mansikkaraparperisoppaa, ainakin se on yhtä klimppistä. Joskus sitä koettaa epätoivoisesti kalastaa sen ainoan kokonaisena säilyneen mansikan sieltä kaiken raparperin seasta.

Liian kuuma, ulkona on ihan takuulla yli 30 astetta lämmintä ja mun aivot on totaalisesti keitetty...tai jotain. =D Vettä...tarvii nestettä... *totaalisen kuivunut*

Mun tyyny...

2006-05-14T20:37:03Z

Kerrassaan ihanaa... mun rakas tyynyni on kuivanut rankan pesuoperaation jälkeen. *rutistelee tyynyä hymisten onnellisena*

Asiat eivät voisi olla paremmin...*pujottaa tyynyä tyynyliinaan ja pöyhii*...jos nyt uni maistuis viimeinkin.

Se toimii...se toimii sittenkin...

2006-05-14T19:51:02Z

Huh! Taistelu XP:n ja vanhan 95 pelin välillä oli pitkä ja sangen rankka. Mutta sain sen toimimaan! *pomppii tuolillaan riemusta hihkuen*

Nyt tietysti kaikki vähänkin normaalimman ajattelumaailman omaavat miettivät, että miksi se ikivanha peli sitten piti saada toimimaan. No tietty siks, et on niin sairaan ihanaa mäiskiä sillä virheällä kouralla niitä olentoja. *virn*

Vaaleanpunaisia tutuja

2006-04-25T21:01:49Z

Sekavaa, kovin on sekavaa. Ei uskoisi, että päiväkirjan kirjoittaminen olisi niin vaikeaa. Täytyy kai tunnustaa, että tämä on tosin ensimmäinen, jota semmoiseksi voisi kutsua, johon olen kirjoittanut kahta sanaa enemmän.

Jostain ihmeen syystä en tunnu pääsevän niistä pupuista vaaleanpunaisissa tutuissaan, eroon. Ne pirulliset olennot kummittelevat öisin. Pitäisiköhän vähentää iltasurffailua?